How long, how long

How long how long woman will you weep. How long how long rock yourself to sleep.

How long how long woman will you wait. How long how long before it’s too late.

Instead of trying to answer how long, I look for workarounds. In this case, server stuff. I was trying to download some files and started to wonder how long – in total – have I spent waiting for things to load. There’s no way to know exactly but I suppose if I decided to add it up it’s possible to get a number. Days? Weeks? I’m trying to talk myself out of it while I wonder what the total looks like.

Another moment of feeling the relentlessness of being a human on the planet right now. Spinning on a spinning planet in the midst of a vast universe wondering how we’ve come to be this version of humans.